Baffling Warning at the Gym


Sunday, 08/15/2004
Around 5:00 p.m.

Baffling Warning at the Gym

Angel by Jimi Hendrix….97

Getting ready to do the next set of workouts, I waited next to one of the weight machines. Nevertheless, I was unaware how closely I was standing to the metal bars. Fixated on the latest in gym shoes, I had no idea the fate that was about to befall me – or would have – if I had not responded to an ensuing telepathic racket and the awesome words: “Move now!”

Almost involuntarily, I hopped to my left and, in less than a split second, a load of weights comes crashing to the floor! Sheer luck does not even come close to describing my fortune. The bars barely graze the hair on my down-turned head. If my crown had taken a direct hit, no doubt I would have suffered a concussion or I might have been killed. Stunned, I roll onto a nearby mat and whisper, “Thank you, whoever you are.” Choking back the tears, I silently say, I am so grateful!

Toweling-off, I sprawl out on the mat while trying to gain some sense of composure. Soon, from the periphery, I catch a bunch of people running in my direction.

Who me? I’m thinking.

“Hey, what happened?” says the first, a broad-shouldered fellow.

“Are you okay?”

Attempting to work up a smile, I say, “Yes, I’m fine, thanks. Just a little stunned, that’s all.”

The nice man nods and a couple of them behind him break into smiles. Others remain more reserved as if heeding caution.

I give them a wink and say, “Thanks for checkin’ on me.”

“Sure,” they say, almost in unison, and skip off to do their workouts.

Not wanting to be the center of attention, I pick up my stuff and move to the far corner of the gym; planning to take five and finish my routine. But as I bend down to tie my shoelaces, I soon realize my hands and legs are still shaking like the streamers on a gift box. Time to clean up, I suppose. Slowly, I make my way to the locker room.

In awe of the baffling warning that saved me from such a dreadful fate, I lug my gym bag and wobbly self to the car. Fumbling for the key, at last I toss my junk in the trunk and head home. Originally, I’d planned to have dinner out and do a little reading. It’s funny how quickly things change.

Peering through the windshield, I’m a turtle looking up at the fearsome sky – scoping out the cosmic possibility that somebody up there likes me. “Thank you for being there, whoever you are! There are just no words!” And I brush a tear from my eye.


97 Hendrix, Jimi. “Angel.” The Cry of Love. Reprise, 1971. LP.


(This excerpt was taken from Mandy Berlin’s 3rd book, Death Is Not “The End”)

Independence Day and the Theory of Everything


Sunday, 07/04/2004
Waning gibbous moon
Independence Day

Independence Day and the
Theory of Everything

“Haunted” by the Moody Blues 67

Parallel Dimensions, Max and Energy Vibration. According to the Many Worlds Theory (Level 3) of parallel dimensions, people are in contact with other worlds (dimensions, universes). (81) All possibilities exist. Then, as you make one decision over another, the universe splits. According to this theory , each of the parallel dimensions is as real as any other. As you enter another dimension, you are probably not aware of the change in state, i.e., not consciously. The change may (or may not) be subtle, but it is natural, of course. One feature or many features of the universe may change. There may be a change in the weather or something might drop out of your universe  entirely, signaling that you have entered a parallel dimension. For instance, you might misplace your keys or start talking to somebody you just met. You might never see this person again. On the other hand, you may end up in a relationship with him (another decision point) and that just might change your life – as Max changed mine when he was alive, and after he died. There are many ways to conceive of parallel dimensions. I like to think of them as alternate realities where like-minded spirits (living and deceased) meet and carry on.

Thoughts to ponder on a rainy day: did I enter a parallel dimension when I first encountered Max’s spirit? Or did his spirit cross over some (mental/physical/spiritual) threshold, entering my universe ? Perhaps Max moved on to another dimension, later returning to see his loved ones – like Tessie, who became aware of his spirit presence, as well as those who remained unaware. Maybe when Max died he did not leave our world at all, at least not for awhile. Then on that awe-inspiring day in my dining room (January 1, 2004), his being and mine reconvened in one dimension, reminding me of the fateful night we met in a bar in Tempe, Arizona.

Parallel dimension and law of attraction concepts link to the principle in quantum physics that energy vibrates (82) at specified frequencies. As we have seen according to string theory , the strings that make up our world of gravity , matter and energy, have different frequencies. That is, strings vibrate with varying levels of energy depending on the form of matter in question. Of course, everything in our universe is made of energy. This truth is evident in Einstein ’s seminal equation, E=Mc-squared. Though mass and energy reflect different properties of the same physical system, they are equivalent. (The letter “c” in the equation represents the speed of light – a constant which, as such, never changes.) In effect, if you multiply the constant by the mass (of any object in our physical system) you will obtain the amount of producible energy, i.e., the object’s frequency of vibration.

Water, trees, rocks, and yes, even money (!) possess the properties of mass and energy . Think about that the next time you wonder where your next dollar will come from. Are you creating your financial future energetically, i.e., through your thoughts, beliefs, attitudes and actions? Your feelings and beliefs about money are as important as your actions.

As part of all matter and energy in our universe , different substances vibrate at different frequencies. For example, the vibrational frequency of a rock varies depending on the type of rock. Quartz crystals are manufactured for frequencies from a few tens of kilohertz to tens of megahertz. (83) Sadly, the water we drink is becoming more and more de-energized, having lower (unhealthier) vibrational frequencies than in previous years. (84) Our bodies are made of seventy to seventy-five percent water – one of the reasons the purity of our water is of great consequence – not only for us, but for all living creatures on our still-breathing planet. The vibration of a rock can be higher or lower than the vibration of a human being. Visit the sacred red rocks of Sedona, Arizona. Absorb the powerful energy of the awesome vibrational structures. Beautiful high frequency locations can be found all over the globe.

We vibrate twenty-four seven. As carbon-based creatures, we are the living, breathing quintessence of all matter and energy that ever existed. We are truly the stuff of stars!

Our vibration may be high or low at any given point in time. In terms of consciousness , our variable levels of energy depend greatly on our thoughts, feelings, beliefs and  attitudes. These, in turn, affect the body, mind and spirit. Dr. David Hawkins ’ Map of Consciousness (converted to a logarithmic scale) is a method of charting (potentially raising?) the vibration of human consciousness. The map is based on Hawkins ’ studies in kinesiology. Using a large world-wide sample, Dr. Hawkins found that the vibrational frequency of love is 525 on the consciousness scale, regardless of where in the world the measurements were taken. Shame and misery hardly vibrate at all, gauged below 50 on the scale. The highest level of attainment, 1000, is beyond the common realm of humanity, i.e., at the level of Christ, or Buddha, or Infinity, “the source of reality manifest as divinity.” (85)

There are numerous ways to increase your energy vibration, such as through frequent exercise, meditation, reciting (and believing) positive affirmations, prayer, by cleansing toxins from the body, or just by being a caring, compassionate person. Journal writing is another wonderful way to raise your vibration. It is one of my favorite ways. On the other hand, you can probably think of activities that tend to lower your energy. What about watching negative movies and television shows? The use of illicit drugs? Taking excessive prescription drugs or even OTCs? Drinking alcohol frequently and excessively? Arguing to no purpose, i.e., outside of the debate arena or classroom? Compulsive shopping? Perhaps the need for more material goods reflects a core need, unexpressed. Like many addictions, extreme shopping may seem to raise your energy initially – only to cause it to plummet when the shopping must be abruptly removed from your agenda, due to a subsequent budget drain. Perhaps even the credit cards are maxed out. What about the strain on your mind, body, spirit? What other activities tend to lower your vibes?

Proponents of the Law of Attraction tell us that like attracts like. This means that like thoughts attract like thoughts. So like thoughts, feelings, and beliefs attract like actions – and like results. Your thoughts create patterns or frequency vibrations, i.e., the frequency at which you are vibrating from moment to moment. Different frequencies attract different kinds of matter and energy . We receive results that vary based on our thoughts, feelings, beliefs and actions. More and more I realize that, whether living or deceased, Max and I were often vibrating at a similar level. We were tuned to the same virtual radio station for a long time, even after he died.

Yet no matter how highly (or lowly) our energy vibrates, consciousness is consciousness. It does not matter whether we are living or deceased. At death, your energy is simply transformed. Einstein reminded us of this truth when he said that energy cannot be created nor destroyed. Energy simply is. Spirit never dies. Consciousness lives on, forever. If we are truly aware, we can tap into that consciousness any time. All it takes is some learning and practice. Initially, without any awareness, I was learning and practicing while I meditated; still do whenever possible. However, just after Max died, all I was attempting to do was to get some sleep. Little did I know what would happen next! …

67 The Moody Blues. “Haunted.” Strange Times. Universal Records, 1999. CD.

81 “The Many Worlds Theory Today.” Nova. WGBH, 21 Oct. 2008. Web. 26 Mar. 2012.

82 A vibration is a wave rather than a solid particle. Subatomic particles, like light, exhibit the properties of a wave or a solid particle interchangeably. For an interesting law of attraction treatment on wave versus particle, refer to: Ray, James Arthur, and Sivertsen, Linda. Harmonic Wealth: The Secret of Attracting the Life You Want. New York: Hyperion, USA, 2008. Print.

83 “Technical Information: Pezoelectric Frequency Control.” Advanced Crystal Technology. Advanced Crystal Technology, N.d. Web. 1 Mar. 2012.

84 Suddath , Ralph. “Vibration, Energy & Water.” Shifting Frequencies. Shifting Frequencies, 2011. Web. 1 Mar. 2012.

85 Hawkins , David R. Power vs. Force. Sedona, AZ: Veritas, 1995. Print.

(This excerpt was taken from Mandy Berlin’s 3rd book, Death Is Not “The End”)

Max Curls Up with Me


Time unknown

Max Curls Up with Me

This journal entry is like déjà vu
and the song “Coming Back to You” by Macy Gray 27

I labeled this journal entry 01/xx because, when so many wild and curious events began to take place, I hadn’t been keeping a record of everything. I do remember, though, that when this event happened, I’d been meditating a lot – praying for peace, fortitude, knowledge and understanding.

And so, right around this time, I’m lying on the sofa when out of the blue, I get the sense that my husband, a disembodied spirit, is curling up around me. I am barely awake. Even so, I’m able to discern powerful thought-forms and emotions surging toward me in waves. I doubt this will make much sense to anyone, but this is the only way I can describe it: I can just about hear Max’s voice as if it is light years away, yet I distinctly hear him cry out, “M-a-n-d-y, I love you.”

“Mandy, I love you!”

Then, without forethought and certainly without any effort, I find myself screaming, “Max, Max, I love you too!” Then I pause, waiting for a response, but I can’t hear a thing. So I say, “Where are you? I mean, I can feel you, but where are you?”

Then, I hear him say, “Mandy…” but I am unable to hear the rest of his words. Like the blips from a bad radio signal, his sound simply fades into a hum… then nothing. And as his voice drifts away, so does his being.

Still, I do not feel alone or empty, and I glide into a bottomless sleep.

ᴥ ᴥ ᴥ

These incredibly heartfelt, if not impassioned moments happened about four or five times over a three-week period. Nevertheless, I am at a loss because I cannot fully comprehend what took place. But in light of all that has happened since December of 2003, I decided to try to capture and make note of these beautifully compelling thoughts and feelings coming through to me. Sometimes the forms arrived as symbols and visual patterns, sometimes as emotions, and other times as words of the English language – all having Max’s unique, resonant quality.

Regardless, my words do not and never will do justice to these overpowering experiences.

27 Gray, Macy. “Coming Back to You.” Déjà Vu (Original Soundtrack). Hollywood,
2006. CD.

(This excerpt was taken from Mandy Berlin’s 3rd book, Death Is Not “The End”)

Coming up in November

Mandy’s 2017 Events:

Coming up in November 


Author, Teacher, Speaker, Mandy Berlin is thrilled to be giving a talk at Bright Side entitled, “How to Create What You Want!”  She will show you how to apply simple, tried and true techniques of the Law of Attraction to create what you want. Her talk will be based on over 10 years of study, practice, teaching, and coaching others on the law of attraction. This event will include how you can utilize Mandy’s Attraction Outcomes Method™.

Ms. Berlin will lead the group in applying her 5-step method to help you attain any dream or goal you may have. She will talk about her own life experiences, studies, and successes as she teaches you how to use the law of attraction (called the LOA). She will discuss positive and negative thoughts with you, and how our thoughts affect our lives. In addition, she will provide guidance in reciting affirmations and in visualizing your intended dream/goal.  Time permitted, the author will open up the floor to your questions.

Book Signing to Follow Ms. Berlin’s Motivational Talk

1st come, 1st serve! For more info about this event call:

Nancy White:  (602) 481-0580 or Bright Side:  (928) 440-5041

To be Held on Friday, November 3rd from 3:00 pm – 5 pm at:

Bright Side Bookshop

      18 N San Francisco St.

     Flagstaff, Arizona 86001

An Introduction to Death Is Not “The End”


Death Is Not “The End”: One Agnostic’s Journey On the Bumpy Road to Belief is a journal of real supernatural events. Three hours before the Christmas Eve of 2003, the soul of Max Blau departed from a hospice in Tempe, Arizona. Yet, in Oxford, England Christmas Eve had already arrived. There in Max’s former home sat his loved ones, grief-stricken upon hearing he had died on their most loved and celebrated holiday. Then just hours after Max’s purported departure, incredible things began to happen in Oxford, and in Arizona as well.

Despite the terrible sadness caused by the untimely death of Max, my husband and dearest friend in all the world, I soon realized that things were not as they seemed. During Christmas week alone, I began to receive telephone calls from loved ones and friends dear to us. Oddly, some of the callers sounded happy, if not downright joyful just after Max had left us! In fact, his sisters and a few of his close friends called to tell me their uncanny stories. From the outset, these tales had a strange effect on me. You see, I was agnostic back then. I had no beliefs one way or another. Nevertheless, after hearing these strange details, I decided to do what I did best – sit at my coffee table and take notes.

After obtaining an advanced degree, I worked for twenty-five years as a statistician in education, health care and government, remaining, as ever, a curious person. So when these incredible events began to take place, I knew I would have to get the details down on paper if I ever wanted to do a little investigating of my own. Then later, to validate these written accounts, I sent reports to those who had kindly taken the time to tell me their stories. If there were any truth to these rare claims, my notes would have to be corroborated, and the required corrections made.

Then on New Year’s Day, two days after Max’s burial, I began to have odd experiences of my own. In fact, I soon became a party to some mind-boggling happenings in places like my home, restaurants, cafés, gardens, and even during my first trip to England! As these unbelievable events hit me, I attempted to sit still long enough to type up the stories. Then before long, I had created a computer document for every event that I had logged and saved in a calendar. Despite the bizarre goings-on, I managed to keep track of most events, including the dates and times of day. My background in psychology and years of recording research data had certainly come in handy. Nevertheless, as you will see, my journal is not written in clinical form. It is mainly written in story form.

In Death Is Not “The End” the supernatural phenomena – both explained and unexplained – are called events. The story begins with the mysterious events of December 23, 2003. It ends with the eye-opening revelation I experienced on December 23, 2004, the first anniversary of Max’s death.

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Through research conducted following the fifty-odd incidents and encounters (and odd they were), I classified the events into a number of unique categories:

the shifting and displacement of physical objects in and around rooms; apparitions and other spirit encounters; synchronicities and extreme coincidences; automatic writing; numinous dreams; the movement of an undated coin; intelligent haunts; residual haunts; uncanny telephone activities; electrical demonstrations, malfunctions and breakdowns; object alteration; third eye phenomena; spirit communications received through clairvoyance, clairaudience and clairsentience; soul travel; spirit guide communications; telepathy; validation of rare events based on the frequency of repetition of the events; validation of rare events based on statistical hypothesis testing; and the discovery of a corroborating written record found after the occurrence of a rare event.

In the Post Script sections following a number of the stories, I examined the events in detail and review subject matter related to the event. The post scripts, as discussed below, are reserved primarily for post-event research and commentary. Though a number of happenings have been left unexplained, clarification is offered and interpretations are made whenever feasible.

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The timeframe of Death Is Not “The End” is December 23, 2003 through December 23, 2004. Regardless, these supernatural, mystical and synchronistic happenings went far beyond the boundaries of one journal year, changing my life completely. Then because of the rare and challenging life changes I continued to experience over a subsequent eight-year period, I continued journaling. After all, the supernatural happenings did not end simply because one journal year had ended. Not by any means! Consequently, I continued to chronicle both the fathomable and the unfathomable for years to come. Nevertheless, my focus shifted because of a notable increase in synchronistic events, intuitive perceptions, signs, and exceptional communications.

As my intuitive side came to the fore, I sought to develop and further understand my newfound abilities under the guidance of Sunny Dawn Johnston of Sunlight Alliance. In 2006, while watching a news program on television, I learned of Ms. Johnston’s amazing intuitive abilities and angel work at The Sunlight Alliance Healing Center in Glendale, Arizona. I called her office immediately and began to take her classes on: Mediumship, the Angels and Archangels, and the Law of Attraction, to name just a few.

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Then in the summer of 2007, I began to suffer from an infirmity that affected my constitution – my whole being. This long-term illness also involved my sight – that is, my physical vision, rather than my intuitive vision. Suddenly, I could not see the long columns of numbers I worked with daily. However, this was my job! Often the pages were blurred or weaving back and forth. Many weeks later, after trying so hard, I was forced to leave my work of twenty-two years as a consulting statistician. This was the only kind of work I had been formally trained to do. It was a scary time for me as I joined the ranks of the unemployed. How would I – how could I – continue to make a living?

Still, I could write and type with eyes unfocused or even closed, so I continued journaling, whenever I was physically able to do so. This task did not require reading or reviewing columns of numbers. Regardless, my lengthy journal still had to be rewritten and edited before it could be published!

Three and a half years and fifty-five doctors later, I finally found a doctor who properly diagnosed my illness. This wonderful naturopath treated me (and is still treating me) for endocrine disease: thyroid disease and hypoadrenalism, the stress disease. As a result of my doctor’s amazing endocrine program and all the awe-inspiring happenings I have experienced since 2003, I see now that I have truly been blessed – with perseverance, renewed energy, and a brand new perspective on life. Then too, because I have kept a detailed log for many years, my notes are ready to be formalized beyond my first journal. I look forward to the prospects with joy and anticipation!

Since my beloved Max went to the light, our bizarre, poignant and often comical communications have been rare. Nevertheless, he still visits our earthly plane of existence from time to time, most notably on special occasions. You see, Max loves parties, get-togethers and helping people of all kinds. What an incredible communicator he was and always will be!

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In addition, I have heard from other visitors as well: my dearly deceased father, my paternal grandparents, my step-father who later passed at the age of ninety-five, angels, spirit guides, and family members of friends and classmates. Many of these beautiful encounters have happened subsequent to the writing of this journal, to be revealed in a future book. Nevertheless, some of these exchanges took place in 2004 when I was first introduced to my spirit guide. I am pleased to present such stories in Death Is Not “The End”.

Journal Entries. My journal contains seventy-one entries, beginning with the events of December 23, 2003 and ending with the incomparable happening of December 23, 2004. My journal delineates over fifty awesome events, spanning a year and one day. The last day is too mind-blowing and too meaningful to be excluded from this tome. Indeed, it is the sine qua non of my journal!

Over fifty refers primarily to recurring events. You see, other events occurred in 2004 that were left undocumented. That is, I did not take the time to document each type of event more than once. If the same event happened several times, I told the story just once. The most repetitive events I experienced were these: an uncanny incident in “The Toaster Trick;” Max curling up on the couch with me; an electrical episode noted in “The Hair Dryer Affair;” and Max’s spirit visitation in a church garden. Though I described the toaster trick soon after it happened, this incident occurred approximately two or three times a week for many weeks in 2004, and on into 2005. Therefore, I witnessed the phenomenal toaster trick at least twenty times – a conservative estimate.

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More than fifty of the seventy-one journal entries are based on unusual, unnatural and meaningful events, such as spirit messages from Max, coincidental electrical events, and the untimely deaths that occurred soon after Max passed away. In this sense, my journal is episodic in nature, unlike a diary of daily activities, thoughts, and concerns. The general narrative and the accounts of our loved ones were written in the past tense. In contrast, I wrote what I call the “cameos,” i.e., my stories and observations concerning the extraordinary happenings, in the present tense in an effort to glue the reader to the scene.

Event Recording. Due to a meticulous bent brought on by working with numbers, I have included dates and times of day at the top of each entry. In this manner, associations and interpretations can be drawn for a better understanding of an event. Because the moon has an effect on nature, phases of the moon are included as well. At the start, I had not yet made the decision to record every observation or to keep track of dates. Later, as I began to keep more exacting records, I expressed my concerns over the neglect of a few particulars. In these cases, an estimated date/time is provided, such as Wednesday Afternoon or 1/xx/04.

The phenomenological data were initially logged as events, then told in story form. However, some information was subsequently removed. For example, if I witnessed an event that I was later unable to recall in any detail, I then excluded the event from my journal. Likewise, I excluded two separate accounts received in early 2004 from two of Max’s dear friends, a man and a woman. Both are friends of mine as well. Since then, I had been unable to reach either of the two for corroboration. So I decided it would be best to remove the stories which they had initially described to me over the phone. However, I can say with confidence that the first event happened to the man while he was walking in the woods, approximately a week after Max died. The second event concerned a phenomenon that the woman said she witnessed in my home while I was vacationing (writing) in Sedona. She had been pet-sitting and watching my house for me. The nature of the details surrounding each of these events is somewhat fuzzy. However, I do know this: both the man and the woman told me their stories with great enthusiasm. They both appeared to have been stunned by what they had seen and heard. The dear man has since moved away with no way to contact. And despite my voice messages and invitations, my friend and confidante (the woman) has not entered my home since the day she witnessed the uncanny event. Now I am unable to reach her at all. Though my friends tell me I ought not wait around, I miss her and have hopes that she will call me one day.

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Despite the years gone by, I still bring a pen and a long sticky note pad with me wherever I go. As I wrote the first draft of Death Is Not “The End”, I never thought, as a few friends suggested, that the recording of all that data would be too tedious a job to undertake. Quite the contrary, I felt comfortable with this idea because the happenings were either so beautiful or so wacky that I felt compelled to get my observations down on paper. Keeping track like this, meant everything would be of record, ready to read and review. This way I could tell my mother and closest friends the amazing stories without dithering. Later, I found myself fleshing out accounts on my laptop – before work, after work, on the Wednesdays of my four-day work week, and on weekends too. Because of this, I was confident I would not be relying on old memory. Before long a journal was born. Lives were forever changed, perhaps mine most of all.

Song Lyrics. These awesome events often arrived with a song – on the radio, via musak, while I was sitting in a café, or in the office where I write. A number of the songs actually described the events as they transpired, lending a synchronistic quality to the whole experience. These songs had become part of the experience itself. Even today, as I remember seeing Max’s spirit on January 3, 2004, I still hear the song “Unchained Melody.” This soulful song was an integral part of my mystical experience that day. You see, approximately five minutes after Max appeared on the arm of my sofa, I changed the television channel out of habit. On hearing the song, “Unchained Melody,” I looked up, and there before me was the movie Ghost, while Max’s spirit hovered above the arm of my sofa. I was stunned!

People are incredulous when they hear this story, thinking it could not possibly have happened. It sounds surreal – too good to be true, they say. Objectively I agree with them. But I am here to tell you that, to my downright amazement, it happened. And in all humility, it happened to me. My ghost story happened just as I told it. Why would I delete this account from my journal, simply because it is too far-fetched for people to believe? I am here to convey to the best of my ability my story – the whole story – about the amazing phenomena experienced by our friends, loved ones, and me. And I am so happy to be telling it!

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Sound became an integral part of my journal, and my journey. Because of the song lyrics and sounds that were linked to key incidents, as in the amazing ghost encounter, these lyrics give the reader a more complete picture of the event. S/he can then visualize and perhaps even feel or hear the experience from the perspective of the one who witnessed it. Such meaningful lyrics and melodies, have a way of adding dimension to my written stories. Where legally permitted, one to four lines of song lyrics have been included in my journal entries. Otherwise, the song titles alone have been included, along with the appropriate footnotes. All required permission standards have been followed, with respect to the use of song lyrics and the proper referencing of all songs in the book.

Post Scripts. The post script sections of my journal fill an important need. Post scripts provide a way of separating the events from issues concerning the events. In this manner, no true story is ever changed or manipulated beyond the necessary revisions for clarity, grammar, punctuation, style and the like.

While refining the book, I expanded on the stories by adding post scripts where there was a need for definitions, further research, and/or commentary concerning an event. Therefore, post scripts are reserved primarily for:

  • My questions or comments concerning an event
  • Definitions or descriptions of phenomena related to an event
  • Key information from theories of consciousness
  • Related information from quantum theory: for example, where an event may connect with, or have roots in, a scientific model (such as string theory, m-theory, or parallel universes)
  • New material related to the story or linked concepts, as in the “Law of Attraction”
  • Logical analysis of an event
  • Statistical analysis of an event, where possible
  • Interpretation of an event

In addition to the post scripts, Journal Entry 34 contains information on quantum physics and The Theory of Everything as related to uncommon phenomena. Journal Entry 59 sheds light on the third eye.

I do not pretend to have all the answers. In that sense, I have not attempted to analyze or interpret every event documented in this book. Some stories are brief and self-explanatory in terms of the typical conjectures put forth to make sense of the phenomena. Although I have attempted to describe the happenings in detail, some events simply defy description and rational explanation. Though I have provided post scripts after certain journal entries and interpretations, I encourage readers to take a stab at it. Get together with friends and read the stories. Analyze and interpret the amazing happenings to your satisfaction. This is half the fun and joy of the book. The other half is the stories themselves.

Please note: Due to the sensitive nature of the subject and as a protective measure, most of the names have been changed in my journal. Nevertheless, the real names of some people have been kept with their expressed permission. I have retained my pen name and the nom de plume of my deceased spouse, Max Blau, as well. Every person, place and event documented herein is real. Yet despite my best efforts to capture in writing the quintessence of a supernatural happening, certain events have left me baffled, no less in the year of this publication.

I continue to keep records of rare and unusual events. Yet there is more than enough to tell, based solely on the breathtaking year that followed the death of my beloved Max. I humbly present my story to you, my readers, in Death Is Not “The End”: One Agnostic’s Journey On the Bumpy Road to Belief!

~Mandy Berlin

Chandler, Arizona

Conversations With Max

When Heaven Touches Earth is the latest book Mandy is included in, and WOW does it have some big names in it! These stories will make a wonderful addition to any holiday gift this year. Mandy would like to share with you an excerpt from her latest co-authored book:

Conversations with Max

I’ll never forget the miraculous New Year’s Day when my beloved Max came to me—just nine days after he had died—forever shattering my agnostic tendencies and prior beliefs about death. I’d spent that miserable morning feeling sorry for my dear, sweet husband, taken so young by the ravages of cancer—and also feeling sorry for myself. Though I’d always known it would be hard after Max transitioned, I’d never imagined just how hard it would be. As I wallowed that morning in the memories and images from his funeral, still so fresh in my heart, I was shocked to hear a voice embedded in an unusual buzzing sound, almost as if it were arising from the back of my brain.

Shaken to the core, I let out a shriek. Something or someone was there! I could barely detect words beneath the surreal buzzing, like the sound of white noise. Trying to regain my composure, I turned toward the sound. “What?” I asked. “What are you saying?”

When I still couldn’t decipher the syllables, I mustered the courage to yell, “Louder! I can’t hear you!” I needed to know what those words were!

Then, all at once, like a blast from infinity, the words socks up! seemed to echo off the back of my neck. The masculine tenor was deep and felt close to my head, yet the pitch was strangely high. That’s the best description I’m able to offer to anyone who has never experienced something so odd. It seemed the phrase “socks up” represented the tail end of a sentence I hadn’t been able to fully make out. And although the resonance was higher than any normal sound I’d ever heard, it was still clear to me that the voice was Max’s.

Even as I was flooded with joy at the contact from my deceased husband, my agnostic scientist’s brain wrestled with the idea of white noise coming to me from another dimension. As a statistician for over twenty years, I knew it wasn’t truly white noise at all. White noise has no pattern; yet this communication was definitely from some sort of entity capable of creating a detectable pattern that emerged in the form of a sentence. The unique sibilance of the words and overall familiarity of the tone left no doubt in my mind that it was Max. Or his soul. Or his something-or-other.

I leapt from my chair and stood straight up to signal my willingness to receive. Shaking, I turned in the direction of the voice and asked, “Socks up? What on earth are you trying to tell me, Max?”

Upcoming Events!!!

Vision Board

Mandy will teach you how to use her Attraction Outcomes Method™ to intend and attract to you the things you’re “missing” or may lack in your life! This class will focus on the creation of your Vision Board to assist you in manifesting (or creating) something of value that you would like to have in your life. For example:
– A new job / new career / new boss 😉
– A new relationship
– More friendships
– Personal growth/self-improvement
– More money/abundance in your life
– A new wardrobe
– Better health
– Weight loss
– More self-esteem
– Your next dream vacation
– A new car
– A new home
– Anything positive that you want or desire to have in your life because you would like to have it!

Vision Boards really work!! This Mandy knows. The Law of Attraction is being used by so many people world-wide, yet so many are unaware of this entire process.

Mandy will also teach you how to focus on your vision board with Positive Feeling, Belief (so important!), Gratitude, and how to “Let Go” so that your wish becomes your Reality! These are some of the basic tenets of the Law of Attraction. However, you will also learn so much more!!

Another class will be announced soon.

Snacks, water, coffee, and hot tea will be provided. If you wish to have a specialty drink, like a particular style of coffee or soda, please bring it along with you.

Invite a friend! Simply call one of these 2 numbers to RSVP and sign up for the class!

Mandy 602-628-6083 or
Lindsey 602-615-6985

The address for this class is near the corner of Elliot Road and Highway 101 in Chandler, AZ. Full address and all remaining details will be provided when you call.


Glow Event

Mandy became a member of GLOW and will be participating in their Fall Potluck event.

More information on exact dates will be coming soon on this wonderful event.


Mandy is in progress of making new video’s outlining some of her amazing experiences with the Law of Attraction. She will also be making a video about her upcoming book, Death is Not “The End”, containing more supernatural phenomena that she experienced shortly after her husband passed. Mandy’s experiences with grief, loss and the supernatural have guided her to share with the world, because she wants to help you over come the feeling of loss in your life. This process is so important in guiding you to create the life of your dreams!

In the mean time follow this link for Mandy’s earlier video’s on YouTube.

Grief and Widows Classes and Seminars

As a widow who experienced 18 additional deaths, following the passing of her beloved Max, Mandy is quite familiar with the overwhelming sadness that often comes with major losses. Over time, Mandy had been able to ease much of these intense feelings through the discovery and practice of some wonderful Law of Attraction techniques.

For the past 9 years Mandy has been applying and teaching friends, loved ones, and students various applications of her Attraction Outcomes Method™. This method, as established through Mandy’s years of metaphysical and scientific research, testing, and experience, will provide you with the powerful tools and techniques you need to manifest (create) the life of your dreams!

Check back on this website for more information on Mandy’s upcoming classes, videos, and seminars.  She is working diligently to produce her next venue in the near future!

Please fill out the form below and register for Mandy’s June Vision Board class.  In addition, feel free to ask Mandy a question or tell her what you would like to see in upcoming venues.  Thank you 🙂

Book Launch Day is Coming SOON!

Wondering what Mandy talks about in her new book?

Here’s a short introduction to “Death is Not “The End”.




       Death Is Not “The End”:  One Agnostic’s Journey On the Bumpy Road to Belief is a journal of real supernatural events.  Three hours before the Christmas Eve of 2003, the soul of Max Blau departed from a hospice in Tempe, Arizona.  Yet, in Oxford, England Christmas Eve had already arrived.  There in Max’s former home sat his loved ones, grief-stricken upon hearing he had died on their most loved and celebrated holiday.  Then just hours after Max’s purported departure, incredible things began to happen in Oxford, and in Arizona as well.

Despite the terrible sadness caused by the untimely death of Max, my husband and dearest friend in all the world, I soon realized that things were not as they seemed.  During Christmas week alone, I began to receive telephone calls from loved ones and friends dear to us.  Oddly, some of the callers sounded happy, if not downright joyful just after Max had left us!  In fact, his sisters and a few of his close friends called to tell me their uncanny stories.  From the outset, these tales had a strange effect on me.  You see, I was agnostic back then. I had no beliefs one way or another.  Nevertheless, after hearing these strange details, I decided to do what I did best – sit at my coffee table and take notes.

The Metaman Tune

Are you ready for one more treat? Here is the next insight into Mandy’s Amazing book, Death Is Not The End!


Thursday, 12/02/2004
Waning gibbous moon
Around 10:30 a.m.

The Metaman Tune

This One’s for You by Barry Manilow …138

While waiting in the doctor’s office for a routine procedure, I was reading a pamphlet when, out of the blue, came “The Metaman Tune!”2 Straight up I perched, wondering if Max’s little ditty had come blazing through to me from some parallel dimension. You see, I never knew how to whistle the tune he created, back when. I mean, I could hardly even remember how it went. Max was the only one who could whistle it as perfectly as I heard today.

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So, what is “Metaman” anyway? Continue reading The Metaman Tune

The Horses and On to Surrey



Thursday, 09/09-09/11/2004
Oxford and Surrey

The Horses and On to Surrey

My Father’s Eyes by Eric Clapton…106

The London and Oxford tours were conducted by my personal guide, Char.  How lucky can I get?  Then, Thursday we enjoyed a tasty Middle Eastern dinner with Char’s sister, Alicia and her daughter, Sandy.  The next day, Char carted me off to the pastures for a mixer with Alicia, Sandy, and their beautiful horses grazing in a field greener than anything I’d seen since the Amish country.  Just before sundown, we snapped a few shots, “manely” of the horses, of course.  (Sorry, couldn’t resist!)

In the morning, we moved on to Hensley for lunch with Max’s cousin, Nate.  After a few laughs, some who-do-you-knows, and an authentic shepherd’s pie, I unhappily said so-long to Char.  Then Nate took over and drove us on to Surrey where he and his wife, Chloe, live with their lovely daughters, Carmella and Rianna.

On Saturday, the five of us motored to Windsor for a tour of the Queen’s Castle.  The knowledgeable staff provided us with an in-depth look at the royal family – the allure, the joys, the responsibilities, and the sorrows that they had endured.  Some would say, what about the wealth?  We don’t have what they have.  Yet, I came away with the feeling that the old adage, money can’t buy happiness, holds true for this family as well. (My upcoming post script highlights the subject of wealth, ponderings written years later).

After our tour of the awesome castle, we hiked over to the gift shop to engage in blatant browsing.  In the end, I did purchase a few things.  You see, I just had to get some Windsor silver, four ornate towels, five boxes of fragrant soaps (they were small, really) and several calendar collectibles – gifts for Mom and a few of our friends.  Then, being the record-keeping fool that I am, I bought and kept a Buckingham Palace calendar for my office.

Thoughts before leaving:  how will this stuff ever fit in my suitcase?

Continue reading The Horses and On to Surrey

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